Day 30 - Anything You Want To Post About
I want to dedicate my last post to the new year. Fourteen days late, I know, but here it is; it’s never too late (or too early) to take some time and think.
I opened one of my old (these pages have went through a lot, believe me) journals today. I just find it great that the “me” a handful of years ago was able to leave numerous messages through these worn-out pages.
This is one of the few; chosen since it’s a clear reminder that there’s hope, not just for me, but for all of us.
Closing Parts of a Testimony from Years Past
It’s hard to go back, to surrender; to be the prodigal son, so to speak. It’s easier, by a long shot, to stay with what feels good; right even. I’ve been so immersed in my selfishness that I thought I had no way out. But there was this feeling, a pang of guilt, an overpowering disdain for myself. This feeling, I just recently learned, was not just my moralistic defense mechanism. This feeling was Christ in me.
So I tried, one step at a time, to get back to Him. The unexpected thing, for me, was that it really was not that hard to come back to Christ. We just complicate things because of doubt. My only struggle then was the actual step of faith. If I called, Lord will you answer? God’s presence, what does it mean? In a worldly perspective, one has to tread the waters first, to learn how to swim. So I did. I prayed, I read the Bible— The effect was surprising. If before, I used to live every day, looking or creating something for me to enjoy, something to make the day significant, now, every single day is significant in itself. Why? Because God loves me. Because God cares for every little thing that I do. I know so because Christ is in me. He will never leave me nor forsake me.
Let me end with this:
The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid? …I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27 1,13-14)
Listen, if you can: Starfield - Unashamed
No matter how far astray you’ve gone, take a breather and be still. God is in everything around you, calling you to Him. I’m a failure by all means, but one saved by grace. —I’m on my way home.
To God be the glory.
